a 3am-can't-sleep-no-matter-how-exhausted-
i-may-be-or-how-much-chamomile-i-ingest mix.

i am not the easiest person to figure out. for me or for others & i believe it is particularly difficult for my boyfriend to "get" me.

i indulge in my own moods, be they good or bad & can stay behind emotional walls for days on end. the problem being that i like it there, where no one can reach me ... i thought i'd have grown out of it by now, but have not. as unhealthy as it may be i still find that place extremely fascinating & fulfilling.

he's the second most impatient person i've ever encountered, yet when it comes to me he's been nothing but patient for the last three & a half years.

this mix is for him. most of the songs remind me of things he might say to me ... a few are my answers to those things. just to let him know that i know he's trying & so am i & i suppose in a relationship that is most important. the trying.

the title was taken from the Bowie song.