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i envy erotomainiacs.
i envy erotomainiacs. | |
Created by: | O_O |
Tracks: | 17 |
Length: | 00:59:10 |
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1. Mix Contest 2 2. Mix Contest 2 3. Mix Contest 2 |
Created on | 8/25/06 12:42pm |
Level | 5 |
Points | 2290 |
Total visitors | 118 |
Unique visitors | 54 |
This mix was ranked #12 out of 30 entries for this contest |
description:
Now with 30% less hope!
Oh, and first things first: http://www.sen dspace.com/file/byfd4n
I'm sure many of you recognize this mix. I asked Eric about deleting the original because i was re-creating it, but he said that would be a pain. He also said i'd lose points, but i was ok with that.
And i'm sure some people are wondering why i didn't remake "The Soundtrack to your Depression" as it's done better rating-wise and all that. But to be honest, i like this one a lot more. I was really happy with the way the original turned out and since i made it, i wanted it to get better ratings than it had, as it's my second-favorite of the ones i've made. But honestly, i think this revision makes it even better. Just a few songs are different, the order has been changed a bit, and i think it just makes it that much better.
The idea here is...a bit darker, a bit more delusional and a bit more desperate than the original version. While i wanted to stay away from songs that really toe the line between limerence and love with the original version, that line can be very blurry when you're all by yourself. And maybe it's not just because "it would work better for this contest."
Oh, and in case you're wondering aout the title and artwork...the original used the lovely Audrey Tautou. This is because she's in a film called "À la folie... pas du tout" (English title: He Loves Me, he Loves me Not). In it, she plays an erotomaniac, which is the tie-in there.
Erotomania is a disorder in which a person holds the delusional belief that another person, usually someone they have very little or no contact with, is in love with them.
So then why the switch to Anna Karina now? Simply because i firmly believe that she is the pinnacle of human aesthetcs. And i guess that's not really saying that much, because we are notoriously awkward creatures. But even so, oh my. If i had a time machine, i would most certainly make an attempt to sweep her off of her feet.
So then, do i actually envy erotomaniacs?
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Don't ask silly questions. Of course i do.
Oh, and first things first: http://www.sen dspace.com/file/byfd4n
I'm sure many of you recognize this mix. I asked Eric about deleting the original because i was re-creating it, but he said that would be a pain. He also said i'd lose points, but i was ok with that.
And i'm sure some people are wondering why i didn't remake "The Soundtrack to your Depression" as it's done better rating-wise and all that. But to be honest, i like this one a lot more. I was really happy with the way the original turned out and since i made it, i wanted it to get better ratings than it had, as it's my second-favorite of the ones i've made. But honestly, i think this revision makes it even better. Just a few songs are different, the order has been changed a bit, and i think it just makes it that much better.
The idea here is...a bit darker, a bit more delusional and a bit more desperate than the original version. While i wanted to stay away from songs that really toe the line between limerence and love with the original version, that line can be very blurry when you're all by yourself. And maybe it's not just because "it would work better for this contest."
Oh, and in case you're wondering aout the title and artwork...the original used the lovely Audrey Tautou. This is because she's in a film called "À la folie... pas du tout" (English title: He Loves Me, he Loves me Not). In it, she plays an erotomaniac, which is the tie-in there.
Erotomania is a disorder in which a person holds the delusional belief that another person, usually someone they have very little or no contact with, is in love with them.
So then why the switch to Anna Karina now? Simply because i firmly believe that she is the pinnacle of human aesthetcs. And i guess that's not really saying that much, because we are notoriously awkward creatures. But even so, oh my. If i had a time machine, i would most certainly make an attempt to sweep her off of her feet.
So then, do i actually envy erotomaniacs?
...
Don't ask silly questions. Of course i do.
tracklist
1 | Jeromes Dream : It's more like a message to you |
So i really like the way this starts things out, with the static at the beginning. "...And these sl [...] SHOW MORE
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Track 17 from Discography
Length: 00:03:30 Year: 0000 |
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So i really like the way this starts things out, with the static at the beginning. "...And these sleepless nights. Tossing and turning. The second most important part of me is untouchable. We had one night and not enough time. We all make mistakes. There's nothing i can do. It's just a part of life. Welcome to my life. This is me." SHOW LESS
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2 | Converge : The Saddest Day |
Anybody who disagrees that this is the best Converge song ever written is an ass. Or a liar. Or possibly a lyi [...]
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Track 1 from Petitioning The Empty Sky
Length: 00:07:06 Year: 1998 |
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Anybody who disagrees that this is the best Converge song ever written is an ass. Or a liar. Or possibly a lying ass. "And we won't be breathing in that same sun again. None of this will ever surface again. How we get older, how we forget about eachother. And the angel falls to the sky. Raised and coiled she blessed this day she did. And it rings our ears. She rarely flies anymore, burden broke her wings. And I know this ghost, I have seen it before. Young it is the dying too fast, too soon, I'll be okay. The air thins in the quick and our lips move but we hear no sound. Every time you justify, another good in you dies. Faith and fear sears me, and love and you pull all the right strings. "How we get older, how we forget about eachother," she said. Entwined within the sadder of days." SHOW LESS
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3 | a days refrain : No Trade Backs |
sean: "I never meant to hurt you i got lost in dreams, but please I couldnt bear to lose you. I was there, i w [...]
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Track 7 from the fiberglass sessions
Length: 00:02:37 Year: 0000 |
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sean: "I never meant to hurt you i got lost in dreams, but please I couldnt bear to lose you. I was there, i was alone, i was there and i'm never going back. Stare at ceilings and run your hand against this wall to hold back your tears. I place my hand inside yours, it never felt this cold. I can still hold onto those days before the tears washed traces away, and i am sorry i broke these pictures, but please don't push me away. I left that place. I could not survive. But i never meant to abandon you. And i can still feel your breath on my neck. So let your breath out, close your eyes, hold your hands out and say goodbye." sal: "I held on for as long as i could to dreams that were my life and i'm afraid i can't return. So i'll try to slip away from reality." SHOW LESS
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4 | Slowdive : 40 Days |
I've read that most of the lyrics on Souvlaki were talking about the breakup between Neil Halstead and Rachel [...]
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Track 3 from Souvlaki
Length: 00:03:16 Year: 1994 |
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I've read that most of the lyrics on Souvlaki were talking about the breakup between Neil Halstead and Rachel Goswell. Here (and on "Machine Gun") it seems really obvious, and really melancholy as a result. "Fourty days and I miss you I'm so high that I've lost my mind It's the summer I'm thinking of Fourty days and I'm blown away If I saw something new I guess I wouldn't worry If I saw something new I guess I wouldn't care You said you're always sleeping But if so, I'll be leaving It's just that I'm always falling And it makes me feel bad, yeah If I saw something new I guess I wouldn't worry If I saw something new I guess I wouldn't care Just to try and watch you Said I love the way that you smile, don't Makes me try and watch you I said I love the way that you smile, don't Smile whenever I watch you I said I love the way that you smile, don't Smile whenever I watch you I said I love the way that you smile, don't" SHOW LESS
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5 | City Of Caterpillar : A Heart Filled Reaction To Dissatisfaction |
It's like...sometimes relationships are doomed before they even start. It's sad, yeah. But it happens every da [...]
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Track 2 from The City Of Caterpillar
Length: 00:02:35 Year: 2003 |
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It's like...sometimes relationships are doomed before they even start. It's sad, yeah. But it happens every day. "Hello, i'd like for us to talk but right now is not such a great time. Maybe when it's more convenient for me and i get something out of it. We'll start off slow, maybe rides to work, that's all i can take for NOW. It's hard to please everyone, alright? I PROMISE. I think i'm more happy when there's no sorries. How's it feel to have such FOOLS attracted to you? I think i know well i know i think-- i sort of have nothing to say and if i did i'd say nothing at all. Now i'm too scared to touch a friend like you." SHOW LESS
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6 | Portrait : north ebony |
This song is just so sad....and so wonderful. Oh my. "So what happens now? Where do we go from her [...] SHOW MORE
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Track 8 from Complete Discography
Length: 00:05:40 Year: 2004 |
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This song is just so sad....and so wonderful. Oh my. "So what happens now? Where do we go from here in this heavy air? What do you mean when you say you dont know which way? You love me. You paint these mistakes so why do they look so real to me? Tell me what you want to believe. How much of me you want to take. Tease me until your heart is cold. Make me believe. Don't wake me when you come next time. Tear me a goodbye and forget ever taking me in." SHOW LESS
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7 | Give Up the Ghost : postmark my compass |
"i am bleeding through writing songs for you if i could draw what i felt then i would draw for [...] SHOW MORE
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Track 6 from Background Music
Length: 00:02:15 Year: 0000 |
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"i am bleeding through writing songs for you if i could draw what i felt then i would draw for you i'm just a boy letting go of his heart because the days are like knives and the knives are so sharp one more kiss - so i dont forget and then i'll open my arms to embrace the regret fragile dreams - fistfight kings slowdance queens... oh pick me please sending 'get well' cards to former stars cause i know how it feels to have fallen so far talentless yet nothingless then hopelessly in awe of you i want nostalgia forever of we throw this life away will we ever have to live again? say 'no' and i'm all yours say 'yes' and i'll still fucking pull tell the boys i'll see them soon your lips were the softest yet north east south and west i gave you my very best i left my heart in yesterday (remember how it used to be) i shot myself full of memory (before the world turn on me?) forget what you know forget that it hurts the 'new days' are coming they're getting fucking worse forget what you know forget that it hurts the 'new days' are coming they're getting fucking worse i am bleeding through writing songs for you i am bleeding through fucking writing songs for you they're all for you." SHOW LESS
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8 | Neil Perry : Don't Even Try to Start a Honda Accord While It's in Drive |
It seems kinda childish, the lyrics to this song. Don't you think? But who's to say all expressions of loss ha [...]
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Track 17 from Discography
Length: 00:00:33 Year: 0000 |
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It seems kinda childish, the lyrics to this song. Don't you think? But who's to say all expressions of loss have to be mature? "Promise...Leaving...Isn't loving... Leaving...Isn't loving...I wish i could tell you with out crying." SHOW LESS
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9 | Off Minor : Problematic Courtship |
So i felt this was an appropriate way to end side one, with the repeating line of "It just ends. It just ends. [...]
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Track 1 from Split with I am the Resurrection
Length: 00:02:00 Year: 2001 |
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So i felt this was an appropriate way to end side one, with the repeating line of "It just ends. It just ends." And then the tape doesn't just end, haha. "she said i wish i was a man, and i said so do i she talks to herself around me i talk to myself around her this is my balcony scene stage it set script is written curtain closes in. this scene ends before it begins. it just ends." SHOW LESS
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10 | Her Space Holiday : Tech Romance |
So how side one ended with "It just ends," side b begins with "Scene one anthem, take one." And i'll be comple [...]
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Track 3 from The Young Machines
Length: 00:04:20 Year: 2003 |
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So how side one ended with "It just ends," side b begins with "Scene one anthem, take one." And i'll be completely honest here. This song makes me tear up, no joke. Especially the second-to-last line. "I'm sick of seeing you cry And wasting all your time On someone who will never care enough To make you feel loved To make you feel safe I would drop my life to take his place To show you just how good Being touched could be Commit these words to memory For when you find yourself Pinned under his demands I am still an option that you have So carry me around Like a picture in your purse Pull me out when things are at their worst You can show up at my house Completely unannounced We'll have that movie kiss we talked about Where there are no words Just a soft and gentle score Our ears will ring from all the strings We'll let the screen go black And watch the credits run And see the names of every one Who we ever met And who we ever missed Each one had a role in this It's just another film that won't get made I'm sick of seeing you cry..." SHOW LESS
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11 | Dance Hall Crashers : Nothing Left To Say |
"you sigh and say goodbye and turn while i scratch out my eyes what have i done this time never [...] SHOW MORE
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Track 9 from Purr
Length: 00:03:02 Year: 1999 |
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"you sigh and say goodbye and turn while i scratch out my eyes what have i done this time nevermind last year never wanted to be all of the things i'm sure are me finally, i can see you're too good for this and i know i'm too late 'cause there's already nothing left to say there's really nothing left to say there's nothing left to say oh, if you only knew how often i thought of you and how you would feel you would smile for sure so you can't be mad when you don't get your sweater back 'cause it's the only part of you that i can hold and i know i'm too late 'cause there's already nothing left to say there's really nothing left to say there's nothing left to say and i know i'm too late (oooh) 'cause there's nothing left to say and at the end of today, it's far too late but i really never ever wanted it to come to this 'cause the final chapter, i never realized that it truly was the end oooh, all i was trying to do was to have and not hurt you couldn't bear to lose my best friend again and as you walk away please believe me when i say that it meant everything to me too and i know i'm too late 'cause there's already nothing left to say there's really nothing left to say there's nothing left to say there's nothing left to say" SHOW LESS
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12 | indian summer : Orchard |
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Track 1 from Split 7" with Current
Length: 00:03:56 Year: 0000 |
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This song's lyrics are obviously very metaphoric. And i think they're very beautiful, and...hopeless. "slow trundle eyes bound to forever sunrise collected taken under sown collection of mirrors past seeing from sleeping the joys of the newfound wing pulling heart and soiled wormlike drudging in movements pictures heavy tenfold of an iron brigde that will not burn 9 ft of solid mud holding and stealing the movement of beams yearnings of swaying forgotten as once more i crawl your surface for less i am guilty for this i am sorry" SHOW LESS
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13 | Audio Karate : Drama Club Romance |
Here it is again...the whole acting metaphor. I did that unconsciously, which is why it only shows up in a few [...]
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Track 2 from Space Camp
Length: 00:02:45 Year: 2002 |
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Here it is again...the whole acting metaphor. I did that unconsciously, which is why it only shows up in a few songs. But i think that whenever a relationship ends, if someone is hurt as a result they'll often ask themself: "Was it just an act? Were they simply pretending the whole time?" "Practice all the lines weve rehearsed play will start at nine and drama is a game ive been thru sort thru broken ties and the curtains on the rise in the moment of surprise the stage that i built on holidays so stand back lights on... i wont fail when your gone... i will never die without you fine without you life without you exists...in time So have you seen the show run lately? seats are hard to find and the teachers on the rooftop singing praise aint justified and the curtains on the rise in the moment of surprise our thoughts will coincide on better days so stand back lights on... i wont fail when your gone... i will never die without you fine without you life without you exists...in time and the curtains on the rise in the moment of surprise when you find the part to play dont let it get away" SHOW LESS
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14 | Ten Grand : Midwinter |
This is one of the criminally underappreciated bands to ever be involved in hardcore / emo / punk rock / whate [...]
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Track 3 from Self-Titled 7"
Length: 00:03:11 Year: 0000 |
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This is one of the criminally underappreciated bands to ever be involved in hardcore / emo / punk rock / whatever you want to call it. This song...the lyrics are somewhat happy, but there's still a sad tone to them. Like with "Tech Romance," it's like the writer hoping for something that can never happen...only here the idea is that it did happen, but now he's just supposed to forget it did and move on with his life. "frost sets in on my Wenceslaus scene in case you don't remember here's the temple of sheets where you forgot your boyfriend and i forgot your boyfriend and we put our mouths together and celebrated 'til sighs i don't think i've seen you look worse than you look right now i'm not joking at all here's the park where i walked through the snow to your job and that's the swing that i sat on when the water froze to my face, i praise the reporter's view ah, here's where you sighed and our mouthes met our necks we stroked our arsm to death we proved ourselves by matching stories and lips and holding hands until he came up the stairs and this is the same pillow where you left your first gift on the last day where every last thing we did stopped and i don't have to act you mean too much to just let you leave so i'll get out of bed when i want to" SHOW LESS
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15 | Orchid : Boy With No Arms |
This is unquestionably one of my favorite Orchid songs....but then, half of their songs are "one of my favorit [...]
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Track 9 from Chaos Is Me
Length: 00:01:44 Year: 0000 |
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This is unquestionably one of my favorite Orchid songs....but then, half of their songs are "one of my favorites." But goddamn, it kills me every time to hear the final lines. I usually scream along with them, wherever i happen to be. "Forever is so easy to say but I can't stand to wait and be slapped in the face. I'll keep this to myself you can't know. Smile for me. Pretend it's alright. Knocked down what's the use? I can't make you happy. I can't even make you feel anymore. How can you look me in the face and say that? I believe in fear and complacency. What do you believe in? What do you believe in?" SHOW LESS
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16 | I Would Set Myself On Fire For You : the first word that comes to mind |
This is my favorite song off of an amazing album. If you haven't heard "...Believes in Patterns" yet, you must [...]
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Track 7 from ...Believes In Patterns
Length: 00:07:38 Year: 0000 |
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This is my favorite song off of an amazing album. If you haven't heard "...Believes in Patterns" yet, you must download or otherwise listen to it. It's such an amazing album. If you like, i can even give you a link to download it. But really, you should hear this record. "I wish you could see yourself standing there now. So tall so proud so bold. Do you recognize those footprints in the sand? They have always been your own. It's beautiful. So what's another day to spend away from her and die a little more inside? It's just another night to lie awake and wonder... I've written a thousand pages in her name and i just want to know, does she ever regret? Does she miss our love? My soul has shattered and fallen to the floor. I still remember your face and how beautiful you were to me. When we were beautiful, together. Looking back it was so beautiful. It could have been so beautiful. I remember. I tried to understand you, but i can't." SHOW LESS
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17 | the last forty seconds : cutting down the glare |
When i read the lyrics to this song, i knew it had to end with this song. There's just no other way it could.. [...]
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Track 5 from self-titld
Length: 00:03:02 Year: 0000 |
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When i read the lyrics to this song, i knew it had to end with this song. There's just no other way it could...also, if you're listening, you should notice that the previous song ends with the word "beautiful," and that's how this one starts. "beautiful like a car crash, mesmerizing and untold you never realize how brittle bone is until you see it up close it's not your fault, you're not what's wrong i saw your sihouette lost among the trees finished in porcelain these moments will last forever i always wished i was more like you if only you were still here we would set the night ablaze tragic like a car crash, devastating and all too real your skin was just a covering you never stood a chance" SHOW LESS
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